Hey guys, sorry I'm never around anymore, I don't have internet in France so use my mum's when I go and see her so have to upload crap quick and then leave so I'm a bit slap dash at the moment.

SO MUCH has happened since I last came online.

We bought a new horse, a French Trotter called that I christened Silverstrike Harlequin Romance, or Harley for short, he is 17hh and a slaughter rescue.

Then Valken's loaner got a job in Denmark and moved out there so I had to have Valken shipped out to me, he's been here for over a week now and I love having him back, though his loaner best hurry up and come visit me!

Then I went and bought a shetland stallion, I admit it, I HAVE A PROBLEM. I now have 11 horses, Silverstrike Romes Little Wonder, he is mine personally and is approx 10hh, a big beefy lad that flies over jumps with me on him and nearly has me off at every turn he is so quick and nifty. Yes, I ride him, I'm 21 this year, 5ft2, weigh 8st and ride a shetland, whatchagorndo?

Everything is coming together right now to make myself an easy temporary life until I bugger off to a distant country with fame and fortune on my agenda

I've bettered my drawings from being stuck doing traditional art as my computer is such a bastard, I hope you enjoy them I've been working hard!

My Chemical Romance split up, now that killed me. I lost Lostprophets and Ian at the end of last year, and the start of this year I lose MCR. WHY.
I've been blubbering on and off for a while now hahah, I've loved MCR for 10 bloody years. They along with Green Day and LP have shaped my life, my styles and my everything since I was 11 years old.

Ian is fighting to clear his name over the sexual abuse charges, I'm so happy he is refusing to go down for this, I'm supporting him all the way and can't wait to see his name cleared. No matter what happens I will always believe him innocent! June is when the trial begins and I will be there every step of the way.

Last of all, on the 29th April 2013 it was 3 years since my darling Welsh B colt Jacob was put to sleep due to ragwort poisoning. April is a black month for me as it has Jake's birthday and deathday all rolled into one as Jake died 12 days after his 1st birthday.

He would have been 4 this year, we would have been competing in show jumping, he had a wicked jump, could clear his gate at 8 months old. My little man never got to grow up and every day it makes me sick and distraught over it. I haven't stopped thinking about him for the past 3 years, every second of every day I want him to come home to me. But I know he is there for me always, it's always sunny on his birthday and the day he died, even if it has been pouring down, storming or snowing beforehand.

I love you Jacob.